So they want me to take on the head of department job. I can't quite wrap my mind around it. I feel tired because it feels as if suddenly, everybody's business is my business. Every complaint, every incompetence, every unhappiness, every unsatisfied ambition is my problem. Oh gracious me.
So here I am on a Sunday afternoon with a Hoegaarden, trying to sort my thoughts out.
Sunday, July 12, 2015
Saturday, June 27, 2015
Things that are forgotten, things that are seared
A friend asked me for some grammar books she could use as reference and so I came back to this webpage to look for the books I used to read. It is kinda scary how many things I have forgotten. If I cannot remember it now, does it make a difference whether or not it happened? What is the point of life when everything can be forgotten?
On the flip side, there are experiences in my life that have been seared deep in my psyche. I get panic attacks now -- I struggle with fear and anxiety, and one small thing can set it off.
I need to break the cycle of anxiety I think. Be less paranoid. I wonder if it would help if I had more exercise. Maybe that will help to keep me more sane. Maybe I could cycle to school...
Anyway. School starts on Monday and I am looking at fancy wireless speakers as a coping mechanism. I'm this close to dropping $1800 for a naim mu-so... Oh well.
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