12:45am

It is so quiet at night. Everything gets magnified. Grief, love, sorrow, desire, brotherhood, loneliness…. all of it expands to fill up the dark.

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Congrats, the Worst is over

Except for how I look.

I never can decide what to wear on Tuesdays. Every Monday i indulge myself by wearing my most comfortablest clothes - usually something involving a pair of cotton cargo pants. Tuesday, if I can't be bothered what my colleagues think of me, I'll put back on the same pair of cotton pants, otherwise I look for a bottom with less pockets and a higher percentage of nylon. Today I'm wearing a pair of auntie pants and stripey long sleeve top (which my colleagues always say looks like crumpled pyjamas), with glasses and track shoes too may I add; I look positively awful.

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Withdrawal Symptoms

My sister is a hoot. She sent me this SMS message yesterday:

I am assuming u are having another day w/o withdrawal symptoms from being away from yr ah mui, pls take a min to reflect on yr sis n all her wonderfulness.

It made me laugh. So I wrote back:

Ha ha! You’re nuts. I live with constant withdrawal symptoms.

And that is a fact.

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No eggs

I repeat, there are NO EGGS in this country.

There is no egg in your ban mien, no egg with your nasi lemak, no sunny-side-up at the mixed vege store (nor scrambled with onions for that matter), no egg with your rosti, no soft boiled eggs with soya sauce, no eggs at NTUC, no eggs at "Sing Song", no egg in sight!

Last night, my friend's parents and their dog went over to their relative's place to deliver eggs. How sweet is that? It makes this place feel like a kampong.

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It's a bird! It's a plane! It's...

Ms Buffalo Wing!!

Check this out. Yum.

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favourite things

I love being in the office alone and watching the sun set over Bukit Timah.

It is my favourite time of the day - the hour between 6:30 and 7:30pm - when the shadows grow long and funky looking in the changing light. Things look funny between 6:30 and 7:30pm - shapes get somewhat distorted and colours become richer. It is as if earth is harnessing all its energies for one last explosion of brilliance before it quietly succumbs to the encroaching night. It is also the hour when birds go home to sleep.

One of my favourite places in the world is a rock that overlooks the A- river. It is not exactly the most romantic or comfortable of places - it inclines backwards, and the river is frequented by barges and motorboats. But at sunset, it transforms into a living painting. I used to sit there by myself, torn in two cos I wanted to sit and watch the sunset, but reluctant to stay cos I did not want to cycle the hilly and arduous 50min journey back in the dark. Common sense usually got the better of me and I would make it back in time for dinner.

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Signs that today is going to be a Good Day

1. I am wearing jeans to work.
2. The TV mobile unit was out of order in the bus.
3. I had toast with mozarella cheese for breakfast.

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Powerpoint Girl Saves the Day!

It is official. I've been appointed the illustrious position of Powerpoint Girl at the upcoming uber-important Central Conference. That means that that after a rapid round of clicking and butt-kicking, Powerpoint Girl will keep Churchville from certain destruction and chaos to save the day! Hooray!

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Terry Fox Run

It was the Terry Fox run this past weekend. My friends and I ran the 8km and finished it in 45mins. I thought we did very well. Especially since one of my friends came down with viral labyrinthitis a week ago and her balance was still off-kilter on Sunday. She either has extraordinary will power and determination (true), or it must be the steriods she has been taking. It didn't feel like 8km though - more like 6 or 7km, but hey, who's counting?

The run marked a certain tentative return to normality for me. Things are still the same in some ways, but it looks like things will carry on. I am still praying.

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Somnolence

So Sleepy Slumberous
My weary droopy eye
Both eyes, didymus oculus
Or is that oculi?

I won’t be gone too long
Just a lee-tle shut-eye
For the split of the splat
In the sweet by and bye.

Have you been to the zoo?
I think it is the rain
Or played a zither?
On my window pane?

Mambo Jambo
New Orleans Jumbo
Jumbling Jumpers
Jab me again.

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Breakfast treats

One cup of Nissin spicy seafood flavour instant noodles for me and one glob of live squirmy bloodworms for the fishies. This is the first time they are getting live food. I hope it doesn't spoil their taste for colour-enhancing dried flakes or they'll be a bunch of very discontented fish.

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A Place

Write me a song and rekindle my hope
In a place far away and certain
A place by the stream in the wood
A moment full and still.

The robin will sing an ode to love
The waters reply in rousing song
Woods will echo deep to deep
Spring will glisten in the dew.

The sun’s journey in the sky
Blazes fiercely in the noonday glare
Shadows grow as the days trudge on
Bodies break with dark despair.

Come and play in the sparkling stream
Do cartwheels on the rolling hills
Water will wash it all away
At the quiet place
By the stream
In the wood.

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Diversion from Article 1

It is interesting. Right after penning the previous entry and lingering on the first Article of Religion, this song came to my head on my way home:

Our God is far greater than words can make known
Exalted and holy, he reigns from his throne
In infinite splendour he rules over all
Yet he feeds the poor sparrow
And he knows when they fall.

His power is great and will ever endure
His wisdom is peaceable, gentle and pure
But greater than all of these glories I see
Is the glorious promise that he cares for me.

Our God is far greater than words or Articles of Religion can make known... The way we perceive and understand things around us is limited and restrained by the human instrument. (see Immanual Kant's refutation of the watchmaker argument for God.) For example, the ideas I can express to you now is limited by my command of the English language, and further by the words available in the language itself. In the same way, everything I think, understand and put to words is limited by the fives senses, the mind, the emotions, the memory, etc.

If how I perceive is three-dimensional, God must be four-dimensional. He is greater than what words can express, yet he exists perfectly in our dimension, and we can understand him fully, but there will always be mystery. It is like how a three-dimsension box has a point aspect (a corner), a one dimension aspect (a line), a two-dimension aspect (a surface), and also a three-dimension aspect (the whole box). In this way, our understanding of him is perfectly true, but at the same time not complete.

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Article 1

There is but one living and true God, everlasting, without body or parts, of infinite power, wisdom, and goodness; the maker and preserver of all things, both visible and invisible. And in unity of this Godhead there are three persons, of one substance, power, and eternity-the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost.

• God lives, meaning he is alive, meaning that God is not a concept or an idea.
• God is everlasting, meaning God is forever, meaning God does not die, decay or deteriorate.
• God is true, meaning that it is not a lie.
• God is without body or parts, meaning God cannot be split up, meaning that God is whole.
• God has infinite power, wisdom and goodness, meaning that God has the ability to do anything he wills, but this power is guided and restrained by wisdom and goodness.
• God is the maker and preserver of all things, meaning that God made everything both visible and invisible, meaning that this world cannot continue without God willing it to, meaning God has not left this world like an orphaned child, meaning all life is in his hands.
• God, in three persons, is of one substance, power, and unity, meaning the Holy Spirit cannot act apart from Christ, meaning that God can have conversations with himself, meaning God is very interesting and very powerful.
  
  

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one cup of coffee

How long does a cup of coffee last? This cup is lasting a long time. It is 3pm already and I am still sipping on my first cup. It's temperature is exactly halfway between a fresh cup of kopi-O and a glass of iced latte.

I've been making photo collages in my free time. I made one of my trip to East Coast Australia, and one of my great wacky heartland friends. I like them a lot.

Check it out. onemillionpictures

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