I am feeling a need to gripe, but I don't want to let it out on my friends or colleagues. My friends have enough to deal with on their own, and my woes sound so miniscule beside theirs.

I have blown my food budget this month. What shall I do? I have all these things that are priorities in my life - like my colleague's last day of work today, and A's birthday, and wanting to buy stuff for friends, and shoes and sandals falling apart - but not enough money to support these priorities. And worse, there doesn't look like there is going to be an increment. I am deathly afraid that if I just blink my eyes, 12 years would have passed me by and I will still be at this job, at the same miserable pay. J commented once that what they don't give me in money, they give me in office space. ha ha. how true.

Do I gripe about money a lot? Have i become shallow and materialistic? I'm not sure, frankly.

I've got to go - the team is coming next week and I have work out of the wazoo. Have to prepare keynote address, talk on M, arrange transport and logistics, call people, and this is not even taking in to account the Y project that is sitting on my shelf uncompleted, collecting dust. That ought to have been out beginning of this year but there is simply no time and i can't get the P's cooperation.

But enough for now. If you have two pennies left in the world, buy a loaf with one and a lily with the other, cos you're just screwed.

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I had a wonderful evening yesteday.

Went for a jog with S through SGH, and did 50 push-ups, 50 sit-ups and 50 tricep push-ups. My muscles ache today. Went home to heat up porridge to eat with spicy pork cubes (my sis introduced me to them. it's really quite yummy. you can't tell from its unglamourous name at all), stir-fried broccoli and acha.

Then I finished summarising "State, Society and Religious Engineering: Towards a Reformist Buddhism in Singapore" by Kuah-Pearce Khun Eng, read a bit of "The Two Towers", played around and then fell soundly and happily asleep. I think I will remember this evening in 20 years. Good memories stick. Bad ones too though.

j's film and a's birthday are falling on the same day! I'm torn. I want to be at two places at one time and I don't know what to do. I guess when it comes down to it I will have to forego the film.

I would like a job that pays me better.

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