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Tuesday, January 31, 2006

The third day of Chinese New Year

On the first day of CNY I had plenty of ang pow.
(red packets with money inside)

On the second day of CNY I had da pen chai.
(big pot of vegetables)

On the third day of CNY I stayed at home.
(stayed at home)

On the fourth day of CNY....

I found out while visiting that the first thing you ate on the first day of Chinese New Year will determine your luck for the rest of the year. I had to think very hard back to Sunday, and then I realised, to my horror, that the first thing I put in my mouth was a cup of very bitter milk coffee. Oh dear me.

I also plan to clean out my room today since I am home. Sweeping and cleaning is also a big no-no this festive period because you'll be sweeping away your "luck". Too bad for my "luck" this year. At this point, I'll rather have a clean room.

Hooray for four-day weekends!!

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Friday, January 27, 2006

Gong Xi Fa Cai


Happy Chinese New Year!

It is amazing what an imminent long weekend does for the disposition. :) Sunday is the first day of Chinese New Year, Monday AND Tuesday are public holidays. Whoohoo!

And you know what is even better? The Company has declared a half day today, which means that I will be a woman of leisure all afternoon long. Absolutely brlliant. :) The plan for today: get some work done, watch "Fearless", read at a cafe somewhere, borrow a few books for the long weekend, then meet jaime oliver, smole, and pink tutu for dinner later.

Okay okay, I'm going to get some work done now since I don't have all day. Heh. To everyone out there: good health and God's blessings for you and your family in the new year!


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Thursday, January 26, 2006

What are blogs for?

For memes of course! :)

Tagged by titania

4 jobs you've had in your life
Kindergarten teacher
Toilet cleaner
Gardener
Powerpointer

Movies you could watch over and over
Erm, I usually watch movies only once.

4 TV shows you love(d) to watch
Scooby Dooby Doo!
Charmed

4 places you've lived
Somewhere in the States
Somewhere in Singapore
In someone's house somewhere

4 places you’ve been on vacation
Kota Kinabalu!
East Coast, Australia
Tioman
Malacca

4 places you would rather be
Quite happy here right now actually, though given a choice, I would like to be able to have all my favourite things and favourite people in one place that is both small enough to be accessible, and large enough not to be claustrophobic.

4 of your favourite foods
Wan ton mee
Steak, medium
Pepperoni and cheese pizza
French peas casserole
Chicken rice
Soup, all kinds, except probably watercress
Chips and cheese dip, with salsa
Mantou and Chilli Crab
Curry puff
Chicken fried chicken with mash potatoes
Baked potato with sour cream and chives
Sausage, biscuit and gravy
Hot plate tofu
(dang I'm hungry now)

4 websites you visit daily
Protopage
Blogger
Flickr
Yahoo

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People Like Us

This is an issue that most of us may not care about because we are as straight as a rod and all our friends the same as us. For a lot of people, this is something that affects other people, like those people with AIDS, those dying of hunger, those with a son hanged on the gallows, those people not like us. We cannot imagine; we cannot empathise. But this is different. You have to sit up and notice because this issue will determine the future in many ways. It has to become more than a theoretical or an ideological or a doctrinal or a political issue because these are real people like you and me who will or will not be forever estranged from the church depending on how things play out.

Recently, it was announced that Liberty League was given a $100,000 grant to help promote healthy sexual identity. To a pointed question on whether Liberty League championed gay rights, Leslie Leung, founder and executive director, explained in fairly neutral terms:

"We champion human rights really. It's about people being able to say, I'm human and sexual orientation is so wide. Being gay and lesbian is part of it; coming out of it is part of it as well."


Of course to certain portions of the gay community, this statement is not at all neutral because of the fact that Leung said, "coming out of it is part of [sexual orientation]" (See dubdew's "Not actually liberal"). Then again, certain portions of the conservative Christian community will take issue that Leung said, "being gay and lesbian is part of [sexual orientation]" too. It is a matter of how you look at it.

In a way, the opposing parties in this issue take offence because they are so alike: they believe so much in their sexual identity. Conservative Christians believe that there is one right or proper sexual orientation; gays know deeply that it was neither choice nor "unfortunate circumstances": this is just the way things are.

So it is fated that they will never agree.

Liberty League doesn't seem didatic. The methods it uses include counselling, self-help groups, and open-ended discussions. But the gay community did a little research into Leslie Leung's Liberty League and found that it published a booklet titled "Freedom of Choice", which was written from a decidedly ex-gay point of view. Affiliation does matter. People Like Us, a gay group here in Singapore, wrote a letter to the forum expressing its displeasure. The letter didn't make it to print:

Media Release
From People Like Us
19 Jan 2006, 20.30h

Singapore govt gives $100,000 to Christian anti-gay group

By giving $100,000 to Liberty League, as reported by ChannelNewsAsia (CNA), the Singapore government is helping to promote a religious cause founded on unscientific and psychologically damaging methods.

Liberty League intends to “promote gender and sexual health” through “conduct[ing] sexuality talks in schools” – CNA report.

However, Liberty League’s website promotes a book ‘Freedom of Choice’. The book’s subjects were almost totally from the Christian group, Choices, which runs programmes teaching that homosexuality is a psychological dysfunction. The book thus promotes this kind of pseudo-therapy propagated by fundamentalist Christian groups.

Mr Leslie Lung, the founder of Liberty League has long been known to be associated with “ex-gay” ministries. The “ex-gay” or “reparative therapy” movement is strongly associated with the more extreme churches in the United States. Liberty League’s website itself uses terms such as “sexual brokenness”, “addiction and abuse”.

In a seminar organised by the Graduates Christian Fellowship on 13 October 2005, which described homosexuality as a psychological problem, Liberty League was touted as resource for counseling. It was recommended by Mr Tan Thuan Seng, the President of Focus on the Family, Singapore (FOTF-Sg) who is known to regularly give anti-gay talks in Christian circles.

FOTF-Sg is an affiliate of Christian- and US-based Focus on the Family as can be seen from the latter’s website. The anti-gay, proselytising stance of Focus on the Family is well known. One may therefore infer that since it was recommended by FOTF-Sg, Liberty League shares a similar position regarding faith and homosexuality.

Liberty League is also lauded on the website of Exodus Singapore, the Christian ex-gay group, http://www.exodusasiapacific.org/singapore.htm. It too speaks of “sexual brokenness” and teaches “God’s plan for sexuality”. On its Policy page, it says, “Exodus Asia Pacific cites homosexual tendencies as one of many disorders that beset fallen humanity. Christ offers a healing alternative to those with sexual and relational problems.”

An 18-year-old student who had attended one of Mr Lung’s earlier talks in her school wrote in her report (deposited with People Like Us) that she had to “sit through a one-hour treatise on why homosexuality was wrong, and if we had any same-sex attractions, we should immediately seek help and ‘turn straight’.

“He made several references to God and the Bible during the talk,” she wrote, and that “it was pretty insensitive to everyone non-Christian.”

It should be noted that in his statement to CNA, Mr Lung spoke of “coming out of [homosexuality]”. At first glance, this phrase appears similar to “coming out” – the well-accepted process of healthy psychological development for gay and lesbian persons – but it is in fact a trojan horse for the opposite: destructive self-denial of a person’s own sexuality.

PLU finds it reprehensible that while the World Health Organization1 and reputable psychological associations2 no longer treat homosexuality as a disorder, the National Volunteer and Philanthropy Centre (NVPC) would still fund an organization that has been founded on this unscientific and damaging premise. (More information on this in Annex.)

The government needs to explain why the NVPC thinks $100,000 is money well spent when given to a disguised religious cause based on unscientific psychotherapeutic approaches that seek to deform young people’s sense of self-worth and psychological health.

PLU also notes that the published guidelines for eligibility for funding from the NVPC include the stipulation that all programmes must be secular, and believes the government needs to explain its grant to Liberty League when even 18 year-old students can so clearly spot its religious agenda.

The government also needs to explain how this grant is consistent with Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong’s claim that the government is not homophobic, made in a comment to the Foreign Correspondents Association on 6 October 2005.

(via Popagandhi)



How can this be resolved? What conservative Christians don't understand is that no matter how much the church says that it welcomes and affirms homosexuals as people of worth and dignity, no matter how open they appear to be, as long as the church states that homosexuality is a sin, gays will never walk in. But how can the church, the protector of the ancient doctrine, not make a stand?

In the US, which is probably a decade ahead of Singapore as far as this issue is concerned, a pastor wrestles with the `the homosexual question' and eventually concludes (tentatively):

"Perhaps we need a five-year moratorium on making pronouncements."


This is a remarkable conclusion, the first I've heard in this debate, and I'm not sure if the risk of the entire church keeping quiet is worth it, but I'm convinced that this may work on a personal level. Perhaps if we forget about our sexual orientation for a while and focus on basic things again, like knowing God, pleasing God, doing good, perhaps God will speak to each of us along the way?

I am not confident of this answer, as I am not confident of what is in my heart. But it may be worth a shot.

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Wednesday, January 25, 2006

For the gringos

Roti prata

Roti prata is great stuff! If you like spicy Mexican food, you'll probably enjoy this Singapore-Malaysia Indian dish.

Roti prata is made from flour, water and oil. First the dough is rolled into tennis ball sized lumps. The prata uncle then flattens these balls with the palm of his hands, until he gets a flat circle of dough. But this is not all. To achieve the flakey and crispy texture, the prata uncle then flings this flat circle in a circular motion, making it much thinner and much larger. (You really need a video of this, my description doesn't do it justice.) He then folds it all over itself back into an airy, multi-layered lump of dough again. This is then cooked over an iron skillet to get what you see on the plate in the picture on the right.

Roti prata is eaten with curry. The best prata is crispy on the outside, and flakey, warm and "full" on the inside. You can ask for egg or onions in your prata too. Prata with fillings are square, prata without are round. New fancy fillings include cheese, mushrooms, etc. The going price for a plain prata is 60 cents (US$0.35) and an egg prata $1 - $1.20 (US$0.60).

A trivial fact: you can always tell a Singaporean when he is in Malaysia when he orders Roti Prata: "roti prata" is known as "roti canai" across the causeway.



Milo Dinosaur

Milo is an Australian produced malt beverage. Milo dinasaur is iced milo with a generous sprinkling of malt powder over the beverage (see left). A variation of milo dinosaur is milo godzilla (iced milo with whipped cream and vanilla ice-cream). We obviously love our large prehistoric animals here in Singapore.

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Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Going Away

You go on a holiday. You leave this stuffy tight-laced concrete jungle and you board a plane to Perth, where you rent a four-by-four and drive overland a day and a half to the Great Barrier Reef. You part with your money and do your first dive, your first para-sailing, your first submarine walk, heck, even your first Banana Boat Ride. With your suntan, you fly to Paris and have champagne and tapas by the moon-lit river, a tenous first kiss on top of Eiffel under the stars, your first night in a hotel that welcomes you with strawberries and cheese: the first time in a jacuzzi for two.

You fly to Boston for the marathon; you explore the ancient runes of Machu Picchu; you camp in the Sahara desert; you conquer Mt Kinabalu; you drink one ruppee Indian tea by the road; you bring medicine to East Timor; you smile in front of the Big Ben; you make a snow angel; you ride a motorbike with three; you dance down the street at night, singing foreign songs to your lover all night long.

And then when the time runs out, you pack your bags and come home, slightly pink, local goodies in your bag for the co-workers, as if it never happened.

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Monday, January 23, 2006

The Weekend

Went for a run at MacRitchie on Sunday evening. The plan was to run from MacRitchie through to Upper Bukit Timah, walk up Bukit Timah Hill, and end with prata and milo dinosaur (see pic on right, courtesy of VT), but it wasn't meant to be. One-third way through, it started pouring. First the thunder, then the sirens, then big fat drops of rain. We (the wimpy sorts) took shelter at the country club and waited for the rain to stop. So we cut the 9.5km run down to 5km, and ended with prata and teh tarik at Upper Thomson instead.

The moral of the story? It doesn't matter how far or how long you run, there is always prata and milo dinosaur waiting at the end of the road, unless it happens to be Hari Raya.

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Sunday, January 22, 2006

Da Vinci Code

Hugely popular, controversial, a bee in the church’s pants, I simply had to read this novel at some point.

I wasn’t too disappointed. The first half of the book was fast-paced and immensely riveting. It started with the murder of a prominent curator and I was quickly baited by strange details surrounding the murder. As it wore on though, Dan Brown’s liberal use of italics to show the thoughts of his characters irritated me. Every few lines you get bombarded with The key to the Holy Grail! or A scroll! or The divan it is. Seriously! Gag. By the second half I was sick to death of the melodramatic italics! and the flat characters.

Da Vinci Code had an interesting plot though, but Dan Brown was helped along by the intrinsic intrigue and mystery surrounding this topic. As far as the supposed heresies of the book, well, Brown says nothing new. I will have to tackle these at a later date.

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Friday, January 20, 2006

Major Distraction

I need to get back to my powerpoints but I can't peel my eyes off his delicious photos on flickr.

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A quiz!

From Canopy.

What is your perfect major?



I have an English and Religion & Philosophy degree. I guess something went wrong somewhere.

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Thursday, January 19, 2006

Mercy deficit

His mercies are new every morning, but I feel like I have used up a whole week's worth of mercy already. I am in mercy deficit. Can I start on next week's supply now? Or better, can I just skip the next day and a half of my life, and get to Saturday?

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Just a few links

Just a few links and I'll be on my way.

Wai, of Fire and Light, went on snake-catching expedition at Sungei Buloh and came away with 35 dog-faced water snakes and a bite on her hand. The way she wrote about the snake bite like mosquito bite like that. Completely beyond me.

Flickr's Interestingness is addictive. (Oh dear, that's the second time I'm using the word addictive today...)

Did you know that magick is a different word from magic? I didn't, not until I stumbled on this wikipedia article.

Because the words are almost identical and the spelling of "magick" has not yet been widely accepted, some people are not aware of the differences and, indeed, think they are the same. Therefore when a witch fails to impress with a feat similar to the sleight-of-hand trick of pulling a rabbit out of a hat, magick is dismissed as phoney. However, if one is to make comparisons, it would be more accurate to compare magick to prayer in other religions, not sleight of hand. Just as a Christian wouldn't expect to offer a prayer and open his eyes to see his wish immediately fulfilled by God, neither does a witch cast a spell and expect to look up to see some sort of miraculous result.

Cowboy Caleb uses the word magick so:
Attending christian magick shows featuring pastors with sorcerous powers and warlock abilities

That's just a little scary. I suppose he meant that satirically because the "Christian magick shows" he refers to isn't at all about magick but about slight sleight-of-hand tricks to entertain and tell people a message, much like the NKF and Ren Ci charity fund-raising shows.

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Coke, ice-cold

I want coke. That's how I can tell that I am finally getting over this bout of sickness. My addiction to the ice-cold beverage is fired anew.

I am feeling better. Well enough to go for a 6.5km run two days ago. I have been so preoccupied with work this last week that I didn't have the time or patience to go running, so I ran home from work instead. It's great for busy people -- the extra time needed is minimal, and you don't feel like you should be working instead.

I think I may do that again today. :)

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Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Nothing at the end of the day

Very busy, but I need to write. I don't know why I need to write, but I've always needed to write, on scraps of paper, on napkins in Burger King, on the margins of my notes, on the margins of your notes, and now here on this blog.

This is becoming something of a dumping ground for me: I write there when I'm the most angry, most upset, most depressed, most tickled, most secretive, most insensible. Then they are just sentence missiles: shoot, shoot, miss, hit -- meaning nothing at the end of the day.

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Afterthoughts

Stress sits in my belly like a latent volcano.

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Monday, January 16, 2006

Snapshots of Chinatown

CNY2006
Evening walk in Chinatown. (15 January 2006)


Chinese sausage
Various types of chinese sausage, salted duck. Seriously, I don't know how to eat the salted duck, except perhaps in soup? Perhaps someone can enlighten me. I only know that Chinese sausage is great in claypot rice. Yum!


ding ding tang
Okay, I lie, this pic was not taken in Chinatown but it is along the same theme, so hey. This is the uncle in Wisma Atria selling "ding ding tang" -- a hard candy that you need a chisel to chip off. "Ding ding" is the sound the chisel makes.

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Friday, January 13, 2006

I'm dreading...

... opening my running log excel file.

The last date in my running log will be

23 December 2005: Mt Kinabalu: 17km : 15 and a half hours: 1.09km/hr

1.09km/h! That's as fast as a snail I suppose. (oh wait, this site says that the speed of a garden snail is 0.048km/h. Ready, Steady, Escargot, a BBC article on London's first professional snail race, is hilarious. )

Since Kinabalu, I've only managed a 2km jog and a game of badly played squash. I've just have been too sick. :(

Friend commented yesterday I may have the 100-day cough. God forbid! I really want to do the KL marathon this March.

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Thursday, January 12, 2006

Mad Tropicalians

This is the closest Singapore ever gets to Winter. It is 24 degrees celsius outside (that's 75.2F for my American friends, conversion by google calculator), and everyone seems to be talking about how cold it is these days and how we should all put on more clothes. I know, we are mad.

I brought an extra-large white umbrella with the words "Italian Festival 2003" to work today. I feel like Mary Poppins! Extra-large umbrellas are prone to being left in buses and cafes. I hope mine makes it home.

So, the cold weather is making me want a hot bowl of instant noodles. It is a good thing to feel hungry. I've been sick enough this new year to have forgotten what it is to have an appetite. Also, the cold weather is making me think that being stuck in the office with a pile of unfinished projects isn't so bad a thing after all.

Projects Infinitium.

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Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Why I am glad I am not a guy

It is dark. Outside, water falls in sheets, whipped by the maddening storm. The wind blows through the air vents, wailing like a banshee. You bundle yourself tighter and watch the the world blurred by rain, as you sip a hot mug of almond drink.

Suddenly, your handphone rings. You pick it up and a voice-recorded message comes on:

"You have been called up for National Service.
Please call 1800-eMindef if this is not for you.
Thank you."

And then you thank the gods you are not a boy.

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Give me a Leper bell

cough cough cough COUGH cough COUGHcoughCOUGHcoughCOUGHcough COUGH cough cough COUGH COUGH COUGH cough

*Sorry, how may I help you?* cough cough

COUGHcoughCOUGHcough cough

cough cough COUGH cough (Er, it's) COUGH COUGH (okay) cough COUGH

*What did you say?* cough COUGH cough COUGHcough

(IT'S) cough cough (OKAY!) COUGH COUGHcough

coughCOUGH*okay*coughCOUGHcoughcoughcoughcough

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Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Today's ponder

Why is it I only crave prata on Hari Raya?

(in the style of Vandice)

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1:30am

It is public holiday season here in Singapore. In the last month, every other week was buffered by a long weekend. Christmas, New Year, Hari Raya Haji tomorrow, and Chinese New Year at the end of the month. The only sad thing: I have a to-do list to rival my Christmas wish list, and this list will taunt me while I lie in bed tomorrow morning, until I drag my sorry self to the empty office to stare at the computer there.

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Sunday, January 08, 2006

Read my screen name

Screen names say a lot about who you are and how you write. This post is for my readers. Thanks for coming by!

TrainofThot
Perfect screen name because his favourite punctuation mark is “…”. (See here, here, or anywhere at all!) His thoughts run like a train, one sentence into another, and yet almost always hit the bulls-eye with a solution or an insight, like a bullet train coming out of a tunnel. TrainofThot is the oldest (current) reader of this blog, whose first comment on this site was to re-write one of the first poems posted here in May 2004.

Smudgi3
Have you seen the various incarnations of her profile picture? They are always smudged, leaving you to wonder: who is the woman behind the words? Her words are frank and undisguised, "stripped bare" so to speak, but when it comes down to it, you'll never see her face.

Eric, of The Fireant Gazette
Eric's writing is as passionate as fire and as conscientious as an ant. He works hard at blogging, conscientiously writing day after day in order to make a difference in his part of the world. He is a fiery champion for the needy, and at the end of many blogging winters, always decides to carry on. The Fireant Gazette is Pencil Shavings identical twin, started on the exact same day, 8 November 2002.

Canopy
No matter how hard you try, you will never get her to reveal a single detail of her real life -- not a school name or a place or a date or a restuarant or anything -- she knows and respects the power of google. Writing with succint clarity, Canopy's Green Mountainsides and Wildflowers is about the forest, not the individual trees.

Jim, of Serotoninrain
Serotonin the neurotransmitter; Jim the master of links. Jim will be the first person to tell you about the latest Firefox update, the power of a new application, and even the latest gag on emergent Christianity. Witty, humourous and real, Serotoninrain is more than a list of links -- it touches on appetite, desire and emotions, just as its chemical equivalent.

Popagandhi
Technically not a reader of this blog, but an extremely intriguing writer. She is a curious mix -- a lover and a Christian, a writer and a photographer, a traveller and a stay-at-home daughter -- just as the word `popagandhi' is an uncomfortable tension between pop culture and radical religiousity. She also writes Mac propaganda, converting masses of Window users with her Gandhi-like sincereity. Popagandhi also goes by Poppy and Skinnylatte.

Moi-Carine
This woman runs like a speed demon. Down-to-earth and unpretentious, she uses her real name `Carine' as her screen name. She is your likeable girl-next-door, except she is Mauritian, not Singaporean. How can you not want to be like her? She loves kittens, running, food, her boyfriend, and she has only sworn once in her blogging career. Only once. Now, that's something to aspire to!

Mystery reader from the Liberty University, Virginia
You came by this blog searching for "sneezing in the light" and have come by occassionally since then. You never leave a comment though. Scary huh, that I know this much. :) Don't worry, I'm perfectly harmless.

Now that I've butchered your screen names, you can tell me what your screen names really mean. ;)

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Friday, January 06, 2006

Second reason, repackaged

flowers

An excuse to post pictures of cheery flowers, I know. But I know you like pictures more than words anyway. :)

This will be the last reason to get out of bed this week. Tune in next week as I dredge out more reasons to get out of bed in the morning.

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Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Second reason this week



It's a rainy start to the year.

Rainy start to the year

But there are always reasons to get out of bed.
Flowers or Food?

(I finally have pictures on my Kinabalu post. Go see! Go see!)

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Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Stuck

I am starting this year full of self-loathing, lethargy and all-around misery. I am hacking like a snooty chimney, all my friends are imminently married, I'm stuck in so many ways, I turn bloody 29 this year, and so the only way I convinced myself not to get a MC and lie around in bed all day was by focusing all my thoughts on this: I get to wear the new comfort pants Smole bought for me yesterday. Nothing like new pants for the new year.

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